Restless

6:06AM

again with the without sleep.


i'm itchy all over and almost everybody is snoring their brains out of their nostrils; yes even my female cousin is capable of snoring. i just let Fiona in a couple of minutes ago because she was whimpering outside like a bitch. well, she is a bitch. but anyway.

What M said on the 27th really stuck in my mind. at first i never wanted to believe it. i mean, who would believe that? but then again, she kept things from us. apparently she wasn't that good at keeping things from us when some of us actually find out. but oh well, nothing we can do about that. everybody has skeletons in their closets and scars beneath the skin.

For some weird reason, i'm finding nicotine inefficient nowadays. back then it usually gets the job done when it comes to knocking my senses out for a tad while just to keep me from breaking apart in an insane reality called life. i wouldn't really know what weakened the effect. must be the excessive smoking done back then.

i guess it'll be better for me more than it will be better for her to just break off contact for a while. just to let the dust settle. that means fighting temptations to reply/text. which wouldn't be much of a problem when i don't have load. now my stomach started grumbling. i think i'll go grab something.

okay, i'm back.

dewberries blueberry is god-damned love. paired with milk or tea? it's the next best thing to blueberries. oh how i would die for blueberries.. aaanyway. moving on. even though this will be immensely taxing, mostly to me, it's something that i've decided upon.


NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS

> Lose the Life-savers
> Make it to the DL on the 3rd Term
> Be lucky enough to inherit the E66
> Never look back
> Save around..10k
> Studies first

So yeah. i need these done by iunno, next new year's eve?HAHA

.ciao.